I am writing this while my heart is heavy. It’s hurting. I do not normally write when I feel this way but today is different.
I typically spend my days attempting to find ways to encourage others through things I write. I try my best to be positive and thankful always looking for the good in things. But days come when even I have a hard time finding the “happy” moments. Today I’m writing from a real place. Today I hurt.
I feel rejected and unloved. Left out and tossed aside. Unimportant to those around me. Hurting is tiring but keeping it all inside is exhausting.
God already knows my heart. He knows how I’m feeling. He knows the origin of the hurt. The tears I’ve cried. He’s recorded every one and so there is no need to pretend with Him.
You keep track of all my sorrows.
You have collected all my tears in your bottle.
You have recorded each on in your book.
Today I’m allowing Him the room to comfort and console. Allowing Him to touch those sensitive places in my heart that I try to hide from everyone else. I often try to conceal the wounds that cut deep and leave me vulnerable but today I am going to release them.
Today I am resting in His promises. Today I am trusting in His unfailing love for me. Though others may find me less important or expendable, He cherishes me. He loves me. He in fact sings over me.
For the Lord your God is living among you.
He is a mighty Savior.
He will take delight in your with gladness.
With His love, He will calm all your fears.
He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.
Not every day can be filled with butterflies and roses. Some days involve tears and puffy eyes. Some days I have to remove the mask and trust that God is present and working through the hurt in my life. Some days I need to let the tears fall. Some days I am brokenhearted.
No matter your hurt. No matter the pain you feel, God loves you. His love quiets and comforts. He is close to those whose hearts are broken. Don’t be afraid to cry out in your loneliness or pain. He is closer than you know and listening ready with arms wide open to rescue your broken heart.
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted;
He rescues those whose spirits are crushed.